The Exhaustion of Trying Without Potential — And Why I’m Holding Out for More?

 I’ve tried. Not just once or twice, but a million times. Every time I felt like I couldn’t keep going, I forced myself to try again. But now, I’m tired. More than tired I’m worn out and deeply disappointed. Because after all that effort, all that giving, there was never any real potential.

It’s hard to explain the pain of giving your whole self your time, your energy, your heart only to end up with nothing. No growth, no mutual respect, no real connection. Just emptiness and frustration. The toll on my mental health and peace has been heavy. I kept giving, hoping it would lead somewhere meaningful, but I ended up with zilch.

I want to be clear: I don’t give myself lightly. I am someone who believes in growth, in partnership, in building something real and lasting. And I would do this again a thousand times over for a man who truly wants it. Who recognizes what I bring to the table and values it.

Unlike many women I know, I’m willing to grow with someone. To become the best version of myself, not just for me but for us. To build an empire together something we both can be proud of when we look back on our lives, side by side, having created something meaningful.

But I’m sorry, you’re not that person. I believe he’s out there the one who will see my potential, meet me in that magical space where two people grow together, and together we’ll unleash something powerful. Something worth trying for, again and again.


For now, I’m stepping back. Not because I’m giving up on love or partnership, but because I’m refusing to waste my energy on something that was never meant to be. I’m choosing to wait for the right one the one who truly deserves all that I am and all that I’m willing to build.


This is my truth, and I won’t settle for less.

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